FullMoon Archive: 四月 April

台南/家 10:00 PM

看到各種父母和孩子的互動，在厭童、喜歡孩子的不同社會氛圍裡，不急著評論他人，不落入窠臼，以帶著愛的眼光看到新發現。

平凡的夜晚，喝一碗紅豆湯的時間，看到幼兒園年紀的孩子把小腳踏車擺在地上，走進來點餐。爸爸笑笑的沒說什麼。在拿完餐點後，兒子坐在椅子上，爸爸卻起身默默把腳踏車牽起來靠牆放好。

小男孩很專注睜大眼看爸爸扶腳踏車放好的背影。父子吃完仙草凍，開心聊天離開。

當下被深深感動，無聲勝有聲。爸爸的教育是身教，是愛的表現。
愛孩子有很多方式，這是我看到我喜歡的方式。

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Taipei 10:03 PM

Realized that I’m a being relies on the reflect from training a lot.
I used to doubt that I can be ‘independent’.

I think I’m wrong.

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Hong Kong 11:26 PM

我開始慢慢明白一種奇怪嘅成長距離。
作為你嘅孩子，儘管你已經活在另一個時空之中, 你嘅聲音仲喺我入面回響；你教過我嘅方式、你曾經嘅沉默，都靜靜留喺我身上。但同時，我正成為一個你未必再完全認得出嘅人。我曾經以為，成長係慢慢變成你，或者一步步離開你。但原來都唔係。我哋係穿過彼此，各自喺對方身上留下痕跡。無需要融合，冇要需變成同一個人。好似兩條水流交錯過，短暫混濁，然後又各自流向唔同嘅方向。成長本身就係咁, 帶住彼此，但唔再擁有彼此。

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Berlin 11:30PM

Tonight, I step out onto the balcony, and the moon is covered by the clouds, a deep, dark sky. Seeing you fall asleep, I watch you and wonder when it began, this quiet unfolding of who you are becoming, like the caterpillar and butterfly we talked about at dinner. "Will you remember me?" a 10-year-old boy in Janpan ask his caterpillar when it metamorphoses into a butterfly. Your hands are a little steadier, your questions a little further from me. I used to be the whole world you moved through, but now I feel you're moving beyond me, carrying pieces of me in ways I cannot always see.

And as you grow, I grow; there is a tenderness in this kind of crossing where your growing feels like my own kind of fading. As if your life passes gently through mine, reshaping me and asking me to loosen my grip, to move like these passing clouds.